Well, the past couple of days have been a little rough. I can handle pain but the one thing that can get me down is headaches, which have been pounding for the past couple of days. Today is much better, thank goodness. I spoke with my doctor yesterday and the reason for the headaches is the Estrogen. Simply put take that headache you usually get when you are about to get your period and increase it by 20%.
As a reminder, I am currently still taking the Lupron and have also added Estrogen, which has increased from 1 pill to 2 pills a day, it will again be increasing to 3 pills on Thursday. The reason for the headaches is that my body is adjusting to the increase in Estrogen, again tricking my body into a natural conception. I can feel changes to my uterous and ovaries. At times this is very uncomfortable but also a good thing because it means the meds are doing their jobs.
Today, I will be getting a much needed massage to help me further relax, a gift from my wonderful Grams. My Grams is a wonderful, caring, strong woman who is the rock of my family, she always knows how to make me feel better. As well as, to remind me the other day of how proud she is of me for not giving up, on that particular day that was all I needed.
Tomorrow is really kind of the beginning of the push until the actual transfer. My husband and I will be going in for an ultrasound to see how my uterine lining is coming along. I will be going to my fertility clinic for this. The doctor will look for a thickening in the uterine wall that will hopefully create a nice home for the embryos to latch onto.
Today it really hit me that we will be having our transfer next Friday. I started crying just thinking about it. I am so grateful that God has blessed these wonderful doctors with the ability to perform such a procedure. I have only explained a small part of IVF, the whole process is so interesting and really incredible to grasp that it is even possible. My husband and I have incredible faith that this is the time. :)
We continue to pray, honey!
ReplyDeletei just started reading your blog steph... brings back a lot of memories- good, bad & just plain ugly! I cant believe how much our lives mirror eachother !! I struggle with a few of the same things, medically & otherwise.
ReplyDeleteYou see, I was told at 13 that i would never be able to conceive, let alone carry !! My type 1 diabetes developed at age 22 months and had ruined/ hurt my chances at many possibilites... I grew up saying "i didnt want ___________ anyways..."
A few months before my wedding i went in for blood work, A1C's etc and was approached by my Dr that if i EVER wanted to have children, i was at my best odds... 20%. My (now)husband and i took it and ran ! There were times i believed it was working, only to be let down. Until...
The morning after my wedding i woke in ICU to a Dr asking if i knew where i was and why i was there. Only, he answered before I: "Congrats Youre 7 weeks along!" Shock, pure shock !! Needless to say i was hospitalized for 7 months with life threatening Low blood sugars, blindness and the inability to feed my baby (I have gastroparesis).
New years weekend 2008 I nearly lost my life, but was able to deliver while unconscious a 6 wk premature, but perfect baby girl, Olyvia !
We struggled with her health. A whole years worth of inpatient chemo & reconstructive surgeries, but this girl is SO AMAZINGLY AMAZING ! Yesterday was another surgery day for her, but today I woke with my now 4 year old baby next to me.
Wanna know whats better ?!?! When Lyvi was 8 mos old i became inexplicably sick- with no answers. The very last test revealed i was 8 weeks along with another baby !!!
Sadly, my specialist recommended an immediate termination, to which i replied ABSOLUTELY NOT !
I delivered a healthy baby girl, Avagh, in April of 2009- and this time i was alert!
My girls are my life ! And your children will be too !
My main purpose for writing was for you to know that I've heard the things youre hearing, I've asked the questions youre asking, I continue to play the "blame game" for Lyvi's health but you know what... I think a true mother always does !
Good Luck ! I'll be praying for you !!