Ultrasound Update

My husband and I went into the fertility clinic bright and early this morning for an ultrasound.  The ultrasound was needed to check the progression of my uterine lining.  To be honest it was nice to see my uterus again and to know that my uterus looks healthy...it is one of my last female organs that actually seems to work correctly so I'm protective of it, haha.  I'm sorry if that's too much info but I really don't have a filter when it comes to talking about my female areas. Anyway, everything looked great and the lining it right where it needs to be for the transfer next week so we kept the date of Friday March 2nd.

It was nice to be at the clinic I really haven't been there a whole lot recently because we've been able to do so much from Holland.  The staff at the clinic is wonderful, they are friendly and so compassionate.  We met with our nurse Sandy.  Sandy was the first nurse we ever met when we started this journey and she has been a constant along with a couple other nurses from the very beginning.  I appreciate her so much because she is always there for the good and bad.  Our clinic is fabulous and I would recommend it to anyone, they put a lot of their own emotion into it and really feel for you and your situation.

So, everything went really well.  I, however had a little bit of an emotion breakdown while talking to Sandy.  I have a really hard time letting my guard down and getting too excited about the procedure.  I am just so scared to be let down again.  I do, however, have good feeling about this procedure, I've had a wonderful few weeks of no stress, a wonderful massage last night and a wonderful peace of mind from my family and friends.  I just don't want to have that feeling again of heartbreak.  Poor Sandy knows all to well, she has unfortunately always been the one to break the bad news to me.  It was nice to see the confidence in her voice while speaking about our case and hearing that she just knows that it will work for us. :)

It's 1 week left until the procedure and my emotions are definitely on high alert and the tears have started to flow.  Being alone the past few days as my husband is at work I have the time to just think, probably a good and a bad thing.  I think in some ways this time off and this alone time has given me time to heal a bit and to reaffirm that I was meant to be a mother.

Our decision sits stronger with me then ever that we will be parents and our decision to go forward with IVF was right.  Maybe, as my Aunt Ruth says, "It's a God Thing," where for a split moment there is just peace and you know that your decision is right and going forward is just so much easier.  I know for sure it's a Gramps thing, telling me to keep going and that he's right with me.  My prayer for myself and for my husband and for everyone else is that we be at peace, there are just some things in life that you just have to rely on FAITH to get your through!