This is probably too much information but oh well...I am still waiting for my period. Lots of people have asked, "Have you started the next set of meds yet?" Nope still just waiting, once I get my period I will go for blood work and then next meds will then begin depending on those results. Patience is not a characteristic I have at all so I'm doing my best to relax and just wait.
I tend to not let myself think too far forward but I found myself today thinking, this time next month I could be pregnant! I almost hate to think it or to say it out loud or write it, I'm afraid to jinx it. Just the thought brings tears to my eyes. I've been pregnant before but this time will be so much different and this time getting through that first trimester will be such an answered prayer. For those who have never experienced infertility, there is, at least for me an extreme emptiness and almost a feeling of blame. It's my body that is not allowing us to have children and our family will not be complete until there is a child. I am able however very strong and I can get through this waiting period, because there is an even more unbearable waiting period that will happen just after the transfer. It's call the 2 week wait, this is the time between transfer and your first blood draw to determine if you are pregnant or not. It is the worst thing ever.
On a wonderful note my husband comes home tomorrow, he has been in California working this entire week. I'm so excited for him to get home, where I tend to be a little high-strong (haha) he is very calm. Calm is good during IVF.
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